pissed

This morning was slightly awful. Roger and I both did not sleep well at all, and he ended up waking up at 430am and subsequently i woke up, tired and grumpy and I was trying so hard to go back to sleep but I was warm and uncomfortable and crowded. Then drove him to work which took longer then I expected and now I have little time before clinical. Oh and my boss called and basically forced me into a friday and saturday team lead shifts. So I can't go to lethbridge anymore. UGH

I'm here, now what?

Had a super busy week. Lots of schoolwork and fairly busy with work things as well. This weekend has been nice, went to a snowboard movie premiere and an acoustic house show with Roger. Both were so nice and I'm excited to go to lethbridge next weekend.

My mom called this morning to tell me my Opa isn't doing so well and he may not make it through the day. Ive been expecting this call, maybe not this soon but it isn't unexpected. I know he will be going to be with his Lord and Savior but I feel pretty sad. Mostly for my mom who wants to be there with him but isn't able to be. I don't know what I should be doing or feeling.

Feeling good feeling great how about you

Finally school week over, couple things to finish tomorrow but overall I feel so relieved. Had the nicest time with Roger.. I think we just need to have more energy around each other. Plus I am starting to be more like myself which is nice, because overall I think I am pretty rad. Saw Lindsay and had a great catch up visit. Bible study tonight, I feel like im finally getting back into the swing of life.

so much to blog. so little time

Spent the long weekend in Ontario overall a really bittersweet trip. Some of the highlights include listening to my Oma explain how dark people are happy because they are, " all like hey mang," eating some delicious dutch food, and seeing my opa. The lowlights being my sister's being fairly rude to me; to the point that I actually felt like crap, (I think I need to put some distance between us for a bit), knowing that that is almost definitely the last time I will see my opa, and things were rather awkward between the cousins. Anyway happy to be home but I am stressed about the amount of schoolwork to do this week. Roger came over last night and we finally had "the talk" haha it was the best ever, basically it began with Roger saying, "sooo I'm not neurotic..." and continued onto be the most drawn out indepth conversation which could basically summed up like this.. I like you, you like me, do you want to define things? Naw. Cool me either. I have so much more I wanted to write about but I need to eat some food and get homework done.

For next time- Michelle's experience in the OR

I need to be better... my patient care is good and I feel confident with my safety in tasks, but all the charting and menial writing tasks need to be brought up to snuff. I am tired and stressed and should do more schoolwork but I just want to sleep.

Tonight relax, watch gossip girl and get a good sleep.
Tomorrow transitions project, laundry, and pack.

Saw Roger last night and it was soo nice. I had a great sleep and a good day at clinical now I just need to stay ahead of everything.

stress

Sometimes I hate humanity. Everyone feels so unique and that there problems and dealings with life are so much more difficult then everyone else's and I am no exception. I feel like I am rushing around with my head cut off, so much to do, not able to do it all, and that my life sucks worse then everyone elses. Ugh I need a good kick in the ass and just to get things done.

You and I

I think we could be great together.. just a few hitches like the fact you have a girlfriend and I dated your best friend.. small small problems. haha. Well you left today and so is Roger. I'm confused and also feeling pretty distanced from the world and unhappy. Im a big baby what can I say. Oh well must finish reflective writing. Maybe going to see charlotte tomorrow will help? Or maybe I should stay home and get somethings done.

Man my face still is killing me! ahhh and I am having a hard time concentrating on other things. It is not so fun. Roger came over last night brought ice cream and made me jello and I couldn't hardly muster energy to talk at all.