Lately I've been thinking about all the ways I want to improve myself, be more athletic, more outdoorsy, better read, more organized, better cook and the list goes on and on. I feel the need to be able to connect with everyone. I to plan to make some changes to have a better scheduled, healthier lifestyle but I think I need to also stop this self loathing.

My christmas list

-Cooking for friends by Gordon Ramsey
-A onesie
-A tan
-Back to the Basics by Ina Garten
-a New laptop
-Also some sort of candy

That 1am feeling

I'm in phoenix. Late at night because I can't sleep. It feels good to be done clinical and finals. I feel a bit lonely though but this song makes me swoon. Girl Like You by Pete Yorn

Outside the weather is frightful

But my onesie is so delightful.

On a side note Roger and I broke up and I quit my job and my friendship with charlotte.
All negative things but I feel positive today and I don't feel like going into detail about all of things now. I'm off to eat sushi and study.

fuck this day

eat my shorts

work...

So I just found out I no longer have my weekly routine shift. Overall it makes sense for the seed, more smooth to have two twelve hour positions but now there is no room for any relief downtown. I barely have time to work right now but it's tough not having any income at all. I'm not sure of my next move, I dont want to become completely uninvolved in the seed but I find it too difficult to scrounge around for relief shifts at the shelter. Plus I don't really want to work twelve hours while in school. I guess I better pray about this.

Nausea, heartburn, indigestion..

For the last couple of months I have been frequently nauseous. I'm getting so sick of it, literally, I need to get to the bottom of it. At first I thought it was dehydration and yes drinking a large glass of water with a bit of lemon juice in it, every morning seems to be helping somewhat. Also coffee seems to agravate it. So I've been avoiding coffee and drinking more water but everytime I am walking outside I feel like im going to vom everywhere. Maybe it's lack of sleep or GERD? But whatever it is I need to fix it.