Gotta have faith

Think positive..

my face hurts!

Wah.
Oh man I am conflicted again. Anytime I am about to start up something new old habits pop up. I can't decide if I a) self sabotage b) am just not ready to be exclusive c) am a slut or d) am scared of commitment. eep. I feel like this should be an easy decision. Ex-boyfriend and I have proven that things between us do not work out why would I even consider going back for thirds, my blonde friend has a girlfriend who he is moving in with and I should even think about him that way, and Roger is wonderful and sweet. Man maybe I should just bang my head against the wall.

The boy

I am quite taken with a man at this time. I have had a little girl crush on this guy since I was 18, I think it was his long flowy blonde hair and gentle spirit but I never really thought of him as a actual option, he seemed very unavailable. He is a good friend of my roommates so I was very content to be sort of friend/ aquaintances with him. He left to go to South America for a year, we kept in touch a little bit. Anyways he got back this July. So one night I am at work and I get a call from my pal Megan, she has won tickets to see MSTRKRFT and can't go so she gives them to me. The concert is that night so I'm frantically looking for someone to go with I ask my roommate Sarah but she is busy but says oh hey Roger isn't doing anything tonight.. so I asked him and we had a great time and then slept on the deck. OH YEAH and he kissed me. I was stoked like oh yeah I made out with roger but never expected anything of it but here I am about a month later. He calls me at least every two days, we hang out quite often and I am loving every minute of it. It is hard to get a hold of him because he doesnt have a cell phone but that almost makes it better because it takes all the worry and guess work from me. He calls me, he invites me places.. kind of old school but completely great.

today

-6am woke up and went to school to study
-10am wrote a midterm which was decently hard and I didn't spend as much time on the written part as I should have. I have a short attention span what can I say.
-12pm racing along the highway listening to rob zombie (wtf? haha), and looking forward to a yummy lunch prepared by my mother.
-1215pm got pulled over by one of the countys sherrif.. I may have been going 167... my bad.
-cried the rest of the way to my parents.
-230pm sitting in a dental chair getting my mouth frozen.
-330pm all done.. with a swollen face, six stitches, four bloody teeth, and my personal favorite a prescription for T3s to show for it. All in all the procedure wasn't too horrible, slightly uncomfortable especially the bottom right it took my dentist four tries to yank it out and that hurt my jaw but c'est la vie. All done now and it can only get better from here.. right?

stuck in my head

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=yLZcfk1wr4I

fall 09

wow I have not used this bad boy in a long time, but since I am sick of my other blog I think I will hit up this one again.
This morning was great!
-woke up at six
-got a latte
-saw my newly married pal Lindsay
-saw a big fat black kitty carrying a mouse
-drove home as the sun was rising

I love getting up early and really getting a feel for the day but I never do it unless I am forced by something. Midterm tomorrow, worth 30% of the mark. eep. So I best do some studying today.