This is from the snowboard trip I went last

weekend. I look so happy! Probably due

to the caramel popcorn I'm eating

or perhaps the Ginger sitting beside me.

Deadmonton, surgery, and confusion

So apparently my new favorite hobby is being conflicted over what to do with my life. I am super super broke, and my parents can't really afford to tide me over anymore, I need to move back to my parents home :( or get a job. I'm taking six classes so I don't feel like getting a job would be the best but moving home and commuting seems lame. I would have to quit my church and my life in calgary is pretty great these days. But lately I have really really enjoyed being in edmonton, which came as a huge shock. I think it has partly been that I have felt pretty useful being at the hospital with Sarah and also that I do have some pretty good friends up there. So if I was living in olds I could still spend quite a bit of time in both calgary and edmonton... while looking for undergrad jobs in both. It could work great or it could be the worst.

Snowboard trips, liver transplants, and french apple tarts

My life has been strangely alternating between chaotic and monotonous. The chaos comes from taking six classes and still trying to have some semblance of a social life while being supportive and present for my roommate who is donating her liver to her dad because he needs a transplant. I think the monotany comes from me being stressed and shutting down thus sitting on my couch watching foodtv for hours on end. Overall I think it's going to be a growing period for me for one thing. With finances, school work, and more commitments then I have ever carried in the past it is a bit of a sink or swim situation.

Jersey Shore ftw

http://www.babelgum.com/4022027/kids-reenact-mtvs-hit-series-jersey-shore.html

I am currently taking three online classes so I try to set aside at least part of everyday to dedicate to them which usually consists of me looking over my assignments then browsing facebook, reading food blogs and watching mad men or dexter, (I have a secret hunger for online television), while I may not be the most responsible and organized student ever I do believe I am rather charming and definitely a bit of a foodie. Here are some of my best finds of the day!

-http://www.bloglander.com/cheapeats/ Quite funny and I love the informal writing style although I do not think I will be partaking any of his reviewed cheap foods anytime soon.

-http://www.offalgood.com/chris-blog Chris Cosentino is kind of a big deal okay, I watched him on The Next Iron chef plus on an episode of No Reservations, (Anthony Bourdain is kind of my hero ok?), so when I saw he had a blog I was all over that like white on rice or any other bad metaphor.

-His brother-in-law Michael Hearst is also cool. Who wouldn't want to hear their favorite recipes made in to songs.

Good weekend I was less antisocial for the first time in awhile. Had a birthday party for Jane and I was pretty impressed with this french apple tart recipe, it was easy and quite tasty. Also went to church, volunteered and went to Lord Nelson's bar. It was nice but now im happy to have my own company. I really want to buy some more books and really focus on school as well.

Nice

I like this website

http://calgaryisawesome.com/

especially the chow down in cowtown obviously

Food love

Man I wanted to go to

this!.

Anthony Bourdain is one of my very favorite authors. His books combine my two very things food and reading. So I obviously wanted to go to this but I am way to broke and it is sold out now anyways.

Every night I tell myself, "I am the cosmos, I am the wind" But that don't get you back again Just when I was starting to feel okay You're on the phone I never wanna be alone Never wanna be alone I hate to have to take you home Wanted too much to say no, no, Yeah, yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah, yeah Never wanna be alone I hate to have to take you home Want you too much to say no, no Yeah, yeah, yeah Yeah, yeah, yeah

My feeling's always happening Something I couldn't hide I can't confide Don't know what's going on inside So every night I tell myself "I am the cosmos, I am the wind" But that don't get you back again I'd really like to see you again I really wanna see you again I'd really like to see you again

buhah I really think I am overtired because I'm watching youtube videos about the Jonas brothers

Buffy vs Edward

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=RZwM3GvaTRM

Makes me lawl everytime

pity party

At this very moment I am wallowing in self pity, for missed chances, poor choices, and the hand life has dealt me. So this is it. I'm going to be very immature allow myself three minutes to be a baby and then get over it.

Laying in bed, I'm not tired at all but I really have to pee. Lol. But I refuse to get out of bed. It was my roommate Sarah'a 26th birthday today. Overall a really quiet day for me at home. I made potato and leek soup and just enjoyed being in my own home for once. I've decided I'm not going to talk to max anymore. I realized that I've just been lonely pathetic girl lately. But he obviously doesn't care about me at all and I don't have the same feelings for him that I once did, I just crave some comfortable intimacy but it really isn't worth it with him. I'm sort of excited to get back into the swing of school and need to really focus on that.

love like winter

Home sweet home.